I wish I was poorer
or I wish I was richer;
I don’t like this middling sort.
Too much to leave behind and walk away
and too little to achieve a single thing.
I do not like the middle ground,
the desperate need
A desperate need to make something,
but too scared to leave behind Saturday night TV
and to hurt feelings with abandonment.
I just want to be free from any guilt
and free the guilty. Why do I
over think all the possibilities
and the lack of them to the extent
I am curled alone
wanting something to begin,
but with no one to share it with?
I want to be completely alone
or with everyone I know
and nothing in between.
There is nothing prettier than a city at 5 AM with its empty streets and cold wind